Thursday Thursday

Thought I'd stop and update since I have neglected to do so for quite some time now. Really not much going on. I've been a home improvement queen the past few weeks. Almost have the front flower bed done. I just need a few more piece of rock. The back flower bed can wait but gotta get that done.
Let's see. Friday night, opening ceremonies for Special O, Saturday are the track & field events. Saturday night heading to Sundance Square to see Four Day Weekend.
Sunday, Rangers vs. Minnesota.
I'm not going to get much done this weekend looks like. I'm running out of time on Stephen's room. I moved the big 36" TV back there so I had to remove the old entertainment center that was part of the 7th grade flood. That thing was wobbling like crazy. I put up shelves. Now going to install Closet Maid in the closets. (Joe & Stephen) I actually dusted all of his trophies and poor Joe went into a sneezing frenzy. I had not done that for 5 or 6 years. Oh my.
Oh, Joe said MOMMA yesterday morning. Have not heard that in at least 2 years. Yeah, I guess I can say when you start complaining about "life" and not being happy, etc. Think about what it would be like if you only heard your kid say a word every 2 - 3 years. That might help you put your life into perspective. He was funny too, he wanted me to watch Wheel of Fortune on the big screen last night. He was grinning that I stopped long enough to sit with him on the sofa.
Went to Waco last Saturday with Joe & Jacque. That was a great visit. It's so hard to believe a year of college is already completed. My goodness. He'll be home soon, working and taking summer classes. Talked to him last night. He's starting his research paper. Steroids. Shouldn't be hard to do that paper. So much in the news about that.
My friend Pam has vowed to break her long about with celibacy this year. She is being fixed up with 2 men this Sunday. Already we figured out she won't get along with one of them so she is going to send him my way. He is a motorcycle & boat guy. Right up my alley.
And, trying to figure out if a man that does the cycle class on Mon & Wed is married. He sure does look and smile. I just need to be brave enough to approach him. I'll put Crystal on that duty. Actually one of Stephen's friends works there and she said she would be on the look out for single men. I'll get her on that task.
Not really interested in a "committed" relationship right now because there's too many projects I need to finish at home, but it would be nice to find a guy that wants to do something every once in awhile. Who knows. Going to let the game come to me, right!!!!!

Finally an update - Get some coffee and enjoy

Finally I am making myself stop so I can give an update of my life. I know, like anyone really cares!
Well, in case you do this is what's been happening lately. I've been going non-stop for about 3 weeks now. Now that spring has arrived there is yard work and of course home improvements, etc. Pam and I had a curbing co. come out and curb our flowerbeds. Then we put river rock in the cement. It looked good, but even better was the acrylic application. Oh my gosh, the rocks turned different colors. I think it looks beautiful. Very unique. I came home last night and got about half of the flower bed cleaned out. That is back breaking work. I want to get that finished this weekend to get that out of the way. I've got to get cracking on Joe's room. So many things to do and such a short time frame. The Big Guy turns 21 on the 15th. Trying, trying to make his room look a bit more mannish.
Stevie boy is coming home Monday. His teaching class was cancelled for Tuesday morning and he's skipping astronomy. He and Bob have for as long as I can remember have attended Opening Day together. (the rule was I would let him skip class that day if he kept his grades up. what a joke. Like I ever had to ask him to keep his grades up) Originally he was going to drive up Tuesday after class but now I get to see him too. He doesn't know about the TV. Oh my gosh, yes, I got a 50" Panasonic Plasma. I love it. Joe loves it. I'm going to watch American Gangster tonight in HD. I've already seen the movie but it will be my first HD movie to watch. I know, too much excitement for you. I digress. The kid is going to be so surprised when he walks in and sees the TV. I may not get him out of the living room.
I've been working out, some days I feel like my pants are a bit smaller and some days I feel like bloated whale. What a battle. I will win this one. I just need to keep the damn carbs away from my mouth. Pretty simple.
Well, I need to get going. Joe and I are going Clean Up Craven's Park. It's a community/city thing today. Then need to get my hair done this afternoon and back home to finish the flower bed.
Sunday, okay your going to think I'm nuts but I learned about this group called Wildcare, Inc. They help injured animals. They nurse them back to health or if they are orphaned and then release them into the wild. They have "foster parents" that help with this. I am going to a class Sunday to learn to be a "foster parent". That is something I would love to do. If I could own an animal refuge on acres of land I would no doubt be the happiest person ever.
Nothing to update on the man scope. Looking pretty dismal now. But I'm not too worried. I've been so busy just can't worry too much about it. I know, let the game come to me. I just hope they know there is a ballpark here at 425 Revolution Lane. Should I put up signs??????

Easter is here and Spring is in the air!!!!!!

Happy Easter to all! I love spring time. The weather is always great rain or shine. You don't have to run the a/c unit. Maybe the heat in the morning, but good time to save money on electricity. (I do have my priorities in order).
I had the insulation, caulking and weather stripping done to the house. I am really looking forward to huge savings. Also had the a/c unit serviced last night so I am ready for summer. I'm supposed to save from $100 to $150 a month on the electric bill.
Let's see. The kid is home again, he and Andrew have been hanging out. They're pretty funny together. Seguin soccer, boys & girls are in the playoffs. Or they were last night. He and Andrew drove to Ennis to watch the girls play.
I have been very diligent in my work outs. Wednesday, Crystal, Pam and I were through working out and for some reason I revealed that I have never been able to do a cartwheel. Of course both of them can. We went outside on the front area of the Y and they started doing cartwheels. That's one of my goals this year. I will do a cartwheel. Yup, I have high aspirations.
Yesterday, poor Bob. He was trying to take a day off with Angela and I pretty much beat him down with a million questions on flat screen TVs. That had to be the most difficult decision I've made in awhile. Finally we agree on one and I hit "send". That was hard to do too especially since I put the PS3 on the bill too. That's being shipped to Baylor, so the kid will be super duper surprised. I'll be tracking that delivery very very closely. I want to make sure he picks it up the minute it is delivered. The games and extra controller are on his dime.
I suppose by next week I will have my big screen TV. I just need to call Direct TV to change out the boxes, etc.
I guess that's all I have for now. Nothing going on in the love life area. I've given up on that anyway. I'm not interested in the drama of dating. I just want to meet a man, it be the right guy and the rest is easy. I just can't deal with playing hard to get, the chase, etc. That is high school behavior and I guess any guy I meet that does that should be a red flag. I guess I'm in for a long long summer! At least I plan on looking good. Just need to lose just 14 lbs and I will be a very happy woman. I know, JUST is the key word in that sentence.
Happy Easter!!!

Spring Break

I am proud to announce my son, my baby darling baby boy is at a barber shop right now, 7:00 a.m. Saturday morning having the initials of BU cut into his hair. Then he plans to dye his hair green for St. Patty's Day.
He told me this last night. Of course I have to remind myself we had just accepted over 13,000 in grants and scholarships at Baylor for the Fall and Spring of next year so I really shouldn't worry too much, right?
Part of me is glad he finally having fun. He has been so dry & driven and now he is finally letting loose. He has plans to drive to Oklahoma weekend after next with another student to watch the Rangers & White Sox play. Then they will watch the Baylor/Oklahoma game that Saturday. I think they are going to spend the night with a high school classmate in Oklahoma now.
My brother is on his way to Oklahoma. I am praying that Jim Brown can help him get his life back and on the road to living without drugs & alcohol. That will take a miracle.
Nothing else going on. I have been having fun hanging out with my neighbor, Pam. She is alot like me and just a fun person to hang out with. We went to Whiz Q Stone on Wednesday. We were acting like two kids in a candy store. I swear we walked away from that place with about 10 more things on our home improvement to do list. And she has been working out with me too. Actually Sonja, me Pam and now my neighbor Crystal have been spending time working out together. I think we are going to try to do St. Patty's Day at Gilligan's. Maybe I will run into the young man that was flirting with me when the insulation crew came to work on my house Wednesday. That kid was so obvious. He went to Home Depot to get weatherstripping for my door so I said, "while your out will you get a gallon of milk, honey". We laughed and he said he would never buy 2% milk. I didn't even notice when he returned, but I went to the fridge to get a piece of Turkey (I was hungry) and there sits a gallon of milk. It wouldn't surprise me if he didn't show up at Gilligan's on Monday. I told him I was going there with friends.
We shall see......
I am going to try a Yoga class today. It is supposed to put you in a tranquil mood. If that is the truth, then maybe I need to do Yoga everyday.
Next update tomorrow.

Tuesday - Gotta be a better day

Oh my gosh. Sunday & Monday are behind me thank goodness. Big hiccups with oil & gas land company and then I learn my brother has been arrested and is in jail. Let's see, domestic violence, domestic violence intimidation, disorderly conduct, drug possession & drug paraphernalia. And they let him walk out of the jail. Idiots. I told the jailer they made a huge mistake by letting him out. He agreed but said the judge makes the calls.
I finally got to bed at 11:30 last night. Lot's of phone calls regarding Mike. I just shake my head in disbelief. How could this man with super intelligence fall so far off the ladder. I just don't get it. We were raised in the same house.
An angel did call me last night. Jim Brown. He wants Mike to come to Oklahoma and he will get him back on track and back to success. Big job. He was so calming and convincing I almost believe he can do it. He has a long history with my brother.
Of course Mike calls me at 2:15 a.m. I thought I dreamed the phone was ringing.
I sure hope Stephen doesn't need me in the middle of the night. He will be out of luck. This girl does not have trouble sleeping. Just lay me horizontal and I am gone.
I have tomorrow & thursday off. I can't wait. Just going to do stuff around the house and spoil my kid. I know, I already do that but at least I can spoil him even more. :)

Spring Forward Today!

Don't forget to spring forward. That's right, we lose an hour of sleep. Doesn't matter to much to me as I went to bed at 10:00 last night.
We had a family dinner at Joe T Garcia's last night. It was super cool that we had our own private room. There was 20 of us there. That last time we got together was New Year's Eve. We wanted to do this while Stephen was home for spring break. I guess as we are getting older we realize how important it is to spend time together. Anyway, it was great fun. Bob & Angela came. My friend Kay came. Joe was none too happy about chicken fajitas. I should have fed him something before we left. Oh well, I think he can stand to miss a meal or two. Sure won't kill him. Judy, sure wish you had been there. You would have had a great time with us.
I bought some tomato plants yesterday. Going to use my new doodad I got from the Home & Garden show to grow them. Also bought a new squirrel feeder. Can't wait to see him out there this morning to see if he is smart enough to work it.
Let's see. My friend Pam and I went to our local bar Friday night to have a few beers. It was like the Cheer's Bar. Everyone that walked in knew someone. I think it might be a place we hit up once a week just to get out. Our plan was to go to the Icehouse in Fort Worth but we decided we would do that when it wasn't so cold. That's a biker bar. I am thinking we could really have some fun in there. Maybe in a couple of weeks. I think we may go to Cowboy's this Friday night to dance.
The kid is home for spring break. Boy, I didn't know how happy I was to see him until I got home Friday night. I am going to take a couple of days off later this week. I don't think we are going to do anything special but I do know this week will fly by too fast.
Well, as you can see my life is becoming quite boring. Now that I have given up on men it seems I don't have too many worries. I just am not interested in the silly games that have been required in this dating endeavor. You would think men in their 40' & 50's would just be normal but it isn't so. So I have decided I am done. Sure feels good now that I have changed my plans.
I'll update as the week goes on. Maybe something fun & exciting will happen.

Betters Days!!

Finally feeling better. I still have a cough but the rest of me is much much better. I thought since I had the flu twice last year I'd be spared. But that didn't happen.
I went to a wedding yesterday. I have to say, I looked like a million bucks. I had a black & white polka dot dress with a black scarf to wear around my shoulders. My hair rocked.
Yep, I was looking good. Not too bad for a old lady!!!!
My kid will be coming home Friday. I can't wait to see him. I almost have forgotten what he looks like. I really really miss him. I'll be taking a couple of days off next week so we can spend some time together.
Still waiting on my oil & gas check. I really wanted to get that TV installed before the kid came home. He would have been pleasantly surprised.
Okay, I have been trying all week to make this stupid Turbo Tax thing work. I can't for life of me figure out what the hell to do with this. It is making me owe taxes and I know I don't. I hate this stuff. Plus I have to update the fasfa and can't do that until I get my taxes done. Guess I will be working on that today. Oh joy.
Joe got a gold in Special O basketball yesterday. Helps that he was the only one in his division. So what if everyone else is too scared to compete with him. :) He loves getting his medal. That part is completely understood. He will be starting the swimming and then track & field next.
My neighbor Pam and I are thinking of going to Cowboys to hang out next Friday. We were having drinks at her house last night and put together several options for us both to get out there and meet some men. She is two years younger than me, decided to raise her kid like I did and now we are both ready to get into some trouble. Should be good for a few stories in the near future.
Well, guess I better get back to the Turbo Tax issue. Anyone want to volunteer to help today, bring yourself on over. I could use it.

Not a good week

I suppose it was inevitable. I thought since I had the flu twice last year I would be spared. Of course when you son just covers you with you know what, chances are you are not going to escape it.
My skin feels like it is going to fall off my body. I am shivering so much. So I went to the dr. I am hoping the antibiotics will help.

Just quickly. The two young girls at work decided last week they would search My Space to find me a date. They ended up contacting two men. I just laughed at them and told them how silly they were. Imagine my surprise when the tennis player calls me today. How embarrassing for him to hear me talking like a man. He seemed to cool. He suggested we meet for lunch in two weeks when he comes to Fort Worth to play tennis. I have to keep fishing. I keep hearing that silly line, you have to kiss a bunch of frogs before you find your prince.

I will update tomorrow if I crawl out of bed. I am going to sleep all day.

Maybe, Valentines Day is starting to work for me!!

Yesterday morning I discovered a vase of 12 beautiful red roses on my front porch. But of course there wasn't a name on the card. Finally the "lucky" man confessed last night. I am thinking Danny is a smart man. He is making good decisions regarding me!! I have to admit I would have been disappointed if he did not do something for me. Not to worry now.

And even better, my kid sent me the most beautiful flowers too.
So, I have to retract my bah humbug theory regarding Valentine's Day. At least this year I will.
Bachelorette party tonight. I hear Dick's Last Resort is a fun place to have a party. I'll give an update tomorrow!!!!

It's Valentines Day

Of course today is THE DAY for all of you men to show your woman how much you love them. And let me add, us single women think this day is completely overrated. :)
Kind of like christmas, bah humbug. So what, it is Valentine's Day.
Usually my kid is the only one that remembers me on this day. I'm not going to hold my breathe since he almost forgot my birthday.
Today we will attend Dave DeLeon's funeral. For those of you that don't know, he is Frank Hill's father in law. He has worked at the law firm for several years. He and I had a pretty tight relationship. I am deeply hurt that he is gone. I will miss that old man. That is what I called him when I saw him. He would say "hey babe" and I would come back with "hey old man". I was able to spend some time with him a couple of days before his surgery. I wish treasure that time and am so grateful for it.
A lesson in all of this..... Be careful of your last words with someone. You never know if that is the last time you will see them.
Man update. I know you have been waiting for this. Seems that Danny and I are getting along well. I was hoping he would be able to come by last night. One of the things we have in common is that we still have kids at home. So we both understand if the other can't just get away. And I like going out with him. He makes me smile and laugh. I almost have him convinced he needs to cut out the sodas and candy. I am going to bring him over to the healthy eating side. He is not fat by any means, actually not a bad body for a 51 yr. old man. He offered to start working out with me. That was huge. I was sold on that one. We are supposed to plan an overnight for next weekend somewhere. I'm trying to be creative but am just coming up blank right now. Something will hit me and it will be perfect.
Last of all. Our oil & gas committee had a private signing Tuesday night. All of our hard work and efforts paid off. My signing bonus is just a little over 3,500. Not too bad considering the first offer was 700.00. Yep, I am patting myself on the back. But I promise. After we have our big party to celebrate this, I AM DONE. I am going to concentrate on myself, my home, getting Joe placed and my love life. Maybe not in that order but all of those things.

Just another Thursday

It's been some time since I have updated. This past week or so has been so busy with work and community involvement. Our first oil & gas signings will begin next Wednesday. That will take up so much of my time for at least a month. Most of the committee members will need to babysit these signing parties to answer questions, etc.
The nice thing about this is we requested the oil company have checks in hand for the 12 committee members when we sign next week. Everyone else will get vouchers until title is run on their property. I should have a $3,000 ish check next week. Going to get my kid a bigger laptop and take his smaller one. Then I think I might indulge myself and get a HDTV. Or, if I am smart and sensible I will put it in the bank and save for a rainy day or car troubles.
I've been refinishing two end tables that was part of a living room set that Pat & I bought when we first married. They have been in the attic. Once I refinish them I am going to put tile in the top. I picked that out this past weekend. I must say, they are going to be beautiful. I am quite impressed with myself. I really enjoy doing stuff like that.
Good news. Nolan Ryan is coming to the Rangers. I am so excited about that. Stephen's boss at the ballpark, Dennis worked for Nolan in Round Rock for years. Should be a good year for the Rangers. May have to buy some season tixs.
Guess that is all I have now. Oh, one more thing. A committee member, Pam that lives in my neighborhood has become someone that I think will be fun to hang out with. We worked out together Tuesday. And have plans to start man hunting together. She is quite attractive and lot's of fun. When I first met her she was content with living the way she has been for some time now. I have her thinking a man isn't such a bad idea after all. It should be interesting to see what we come up with.

Superbowl Sunday

I have to admit I am still hurting that my Cowboys are not playing today. I just thought for sure they would be. Stupid Cowboys didn't even make it through round one. After the Cowboys lost I decided I want Green Bay to win. Okay, that didn't happen either. Now I really don't care who wins. I'll just watch football and enjoy it.
The update on the oil & gas "job" is looking very promising. We have two really good offers on the table. I am hoping with all of my hopes this thing wraps up in the next 30 days. This has been more work than booster club. So many phone calls, people coming to my house at all hours. Oh, one exception on the last comment. I was working on my tables that I am going to stain and put tile in the table top yesterday. This fancy sports car show up in front of my house and this rather handsome guy brings me the form he received on his door to join the neighborhood group. We talked for a bit. He is single. OK, that was a positive. I am sure I will be seeing him again. Might even need to give him a call. I am sure there is something he left out when filling out the paperwork. Gotta work it as my friends say. I think I will start with him. :)
Nothing else going on. I had a good birthday. I got LOT'S flowers and cards. Had a wonderful lunch. Wow, 48. I am, well never mind. Can't be old yet. I have too many things I need to take care of first.

2008 - What's in Store?

All of my girlfriends tell me that 2008 is OUR year. I wonder why they think that? Do they have some premonition that I don't have? HUM.... I keep telling myself "it could be true". I suppose we will just have to sit back and wait. Tina and I talked yesterday. She passed a Human Resource test that will open so many job opportunities for her. She told me she is finally on track mentally and needs to get on track physically. She reminded me of how men would stop and look at us when we used to go out together. I had to remind her we were 10 years younger. :) She argued that we still have it, just have to convince the men that we do.
We are going to meet tomorrow in downtown Ft. Worth for happy hour. I'll have to get my game on and work it.
My thought on dating. It sucks. I hate dating. It would have been fun 10 years ago but that was not an option at that time. Now, in my late 40's and I am trying to date. Most men my age that are not already married have such incredible flaws and bad personalities that only a desperate woman would even consider them. Well, guess we will see if my friends are right, see what happens in 2008.
Stephen started his basketball inter murals. I had to ask if he even got to play. He informed me not only did he start, he made 11 points and they won. So cool that he is getting to experience what college is really about. I mailed his basketball shoes to him yesterday. I was at the UPS store. The kid that waited on me said "wow, your kid goes to Baylor". It made me proud to hear a kid say that.
Alrighty, I am going to close this out. I'm not feeling it today and this is getting boring. Maybe I will have better news after Thursday's happy hour!

Feeling Better

Today, I have the day off. The weather guys listened to me too. I prayed today would not be a snow day for the schools. I did not want to spend my day off with the Big Guy. Really need some alone time in my house. Actually I need to clean my house. :)
Great news! We got an offer from a land company for 17k an acre and implementing the SWAPO lease with few revisions. I can't express how happy I am this endeavor is almost over. This has taken quite a toll on me. Next time I start on a crusade someone please stop me. Actually I am preparing to send a letter to all of the state reps regarding the lack of services for kids with Autism. Maybe it won't turn into anything. They will probably just trash my letter anyway.
Even better news!!!! My kid is really kicking butt at Baylor. He got a JOB, yep a JOB doing something that he absolutely loves. Hanging out with baseball guys and filming them. You know, I always preached to him to LOVE his work because you will have to get up and do it everyday. I think that preaching may have paid off. I can't be more proud of an individual than I am of him. We all could learn a lesson of humility and integrity from this kid. I hope when he does become a coach he will use the same theory that Coach Albus always preached. "If I accomplish nothing more than turning you young men into good Men, Husbands & Fathers, then I have done my job." I know one kid that benefited from knowing him. Of course most of the credit goes to someone else, but he knows that. :)
Wow, I almost forgot to write about men. What am I thinking!!!!! See, it wasn't the first topic so I must be feeling better about things. I do have a date tonight. With Danny. I am actually looking forward to it. I need to get my game on as the girls at work tell me. We are going to have dinner at Fish City and wing it after that. If it is too cold out then I am thinking a dvd and a cozy fire would be a good way to stay warm. We shall see.

Men - Who needs them?

I look forward to the time when I can diary about something other than men. Or at least not have men a first topic of my blog. But this week has really left me "pissed off" regarding men and I must vent. It makes me question who I am and could the problem be me and not them? Of course you know I have finally gotten the goof ball guy to quit calling. Thank goodness he has respected my request. Then let's talk about the guy that was my best friend and then the relationship turned into something much more and I thought, something that would possibly become a long term relationship. I was really off base on that situation. Come to find out he does love me but just doesn't love me enough. He is going to stay with the woman that has his home, his children, his social life and I am sure he will keep praying that she doesn't pull another 20 dry spell of showing no affection and making him think she doesn't even like him. I wish them both well. Because, I was not good enough to take a chance and invest his feelings and life in. I am not a sure thing so I get the heave ho. I was graceful about it because really, do I have a choice?
Then let's move on to the guy I saw several years ago that couldn't keep his penis in his pants. Meaning, he was not faithful to me. And you know, the funny thing is, I did do my part in the relationship. That means I did show affection in all ways, there was not a dry spell to use as an excuse. He just was not willing to commit to me. He called again Friday night to beg me please give him another chance and tell me once again he just did not commit to me at the time. Well, I am looking pretty good now that you have married an obnoxious & hateful woman (your words). He wants me to please know he is so so so so so sorry for what he did. He realizes I am the most incredible person and if only he could have another chance. I will talk with my mom. Whatever she decides is best is what I will go with. If she tells me to send him packing then that is what will happen. If she thinks he is worth another chance, and when I say another that is a huge exaggeration. I will consider giving him another chance.
Alright, the last guy. He calls me Friday evening. After a 45 minute conversation, we are not any closer to a second date than before the phone call. I am going to cut him some slack because his mom just passed away a week before Christmas. But come on, you are 51 years old. Don't you know if you are really ready to go out with a woman and get to know her as opposed to needing more time to grieve for your passing mom. My neighbor says he doesn't realize he is depressed and to give him some more time. It should not be this hard. I deal with and have dealt with issues for the past 12 years that most people can't even begin to comprehend. Yet I wake up each day and hope things will be better and try to be relatively happy. I know, I am not being very sympathetic. You see, I still have one more move to make regarding Joseph, but I am not going to cry about it each day. When it is time, I will do it, have my cry and pick myself up again and continue on with life. Geez, how many of you have to put your kid in a group home, so I can only say "give me a break". Quit bitching about the small stuff.
On a more happy and positive note. Thank goodness I have friends. I went to a movie last night and then had a GREAT margarita afterwards. The great thing about that date was I didn't have to hear what an incredible woman I am, I love you but.... It was just an evening with my friend. We saw Juno. That was a really good movie. Stevie said it was.
And another cool thing, my kid came home last night with 3 other Baylor kids. One of the kids play club ice hockey for Baylor and was supposed to have a game at the Parks. It got forfeited but they came up anyway. It was really good to see him even if it was only a week since that last time. The girls were so OOHING and AWING at the pics I have displayed of Stevie. That was fun to watch. And he finally buzzed his head. He just does not look good in long hair. They are coming by here before heading back so I can make them brunch. That will make today a good day for this old lady.
At least I can say I am not spending much time on the guys that are not willing to be a part of my life. And I think my rule of NO SECOND CHANCES should continue. That would take care of guy #2. HUM... Let me think about it. Maybe I need some football to clear my head. :)

Stupid Cowboys

I can't decide if I am mad or sad. Probably mad. What is the point of making it this far and then playing stupid football.
And... to top it off. I tell the goofy guy there is nothing between us. Can't happen, won't happen.
What do I get when the game is over. Text messages from him. He tells me he has been rejected twice in one day. Oh my.
I can't believe I am saying this but I am ready for Monday.

Today is Football Sunday

I thought I would start the day off with an update of the past week. Of course I will have a brief follow up after the outcome of today's Cowboys/Giants game. I hope it is a good report. And I don't mean for those Giants fans either.
Alright, let's start with the most important thing. My Stevie Boy left for Waco yesterday morning. I have been telling everyone I am okay, not going to miss him too much, he is only 1 1/2 hours away. WELL, I was wrong. After going over everything twice yesterday morning (meaning, how many times can I ask him to be sure he didn't forget his contacts, belts, shoes, etc.) I had to finally accept he was going to get into that car and drive off. I couldn't even say goodbye as I was crying already. I did notice he wouldn't look at me so I am thinking he was having a hard time too. Gosh, I think that is the kind of broken heart that would kill you. I am better today, but when I put his clean sheets on this morning it was obvious no one has been in the room for 24 hours. Clean and neat. I have taken the advice of my coworker Patty, both of her kids are in college and she is the same kind of parent I am. We live and breathe our kids. She just shuts the bedroom doors so she doesn't have to look in and see an empty room.
Next topic. Men. Oh my goodness. It is either feast or famine with me. This goof ball that was at the party last Saturday has turned into the biggest pest I have ever met. I am sure if I had not been for the big shot of Crown Royal I drank that night I would have never given him my phone number. This guy is 42 years old and has sent me text messages such as "You are so beautiful you make my pants go crazy" or how about this one "Otay Buckwheat" and I love this one. He "laughed his ass off" with a text response I sent him. Oh my goodness. I really think he has been hit in the head one too many times. I just can't get him to quit calling me. I will just have to be blunt and to the point. I hate being that way but some guys just don't get it until you hit them in the head with it. That is on my to do list today. On a positive note, I had dinner Friday night with a guy that my neighbor tried to fix me up with 2 years ago. I just wasn't ready to date anyone at that time. I agreed to try again. We had a wonderful evening. We laughed, had good conversation and a couple of beers too. I think we are going to try date #2 next weekend. Probably came at a good time since the "other" love interest has made it very clear what direction he will be going in. I have to respect that decision and move on. Maybe this new guy will turn out to be someone I enjoy spending time with. At least he has not said anything retarded yet. And he has not made any attempts to be anything other than a perfect gentleman. Okay, that is all for now. I will be back after the Cowboy game. Note to all concerned. Stephen is back in Waco so that will be good for today's football game. He told me every loss they have had this year he was in Arlington. As much as I miss my kid, he had to go. :)

New Year, New Thoughts

I have not updated since the New Year's because I have been busy. Work is non-stop as usual at this time of year. I have had somewhat of a social life as well. I have been fishing as my friends call it. They need to get out and fish too. "Fishing" means I have been putting myself out there and going places where I might meet someone that would want to spend time with me. Of course you have to be open to letting that person in your space. I am working on that too.
I think my "butterfly" theory has finally come to a conclusion. It (love) is not going to come back so that means..... The love was never mine. That makes me so sad because I worry if I will ever meet someone else that I feel so comfortable with and just enjoy being with. My tendency is to find faults in a man so I don't have to "like" them. That never happened with him. Everything was good with him. And my goodness, anyone that let's me talk as much as I do must be a saint.
My faith is not as strong as it was a month ago. But I think this is the way it is supposed to be if it does not work out that we are together. I will move on and continue to "fish".
When has a broken heart ever killed anyone, right????

New Year Update

Just a quick update of the past week. Friday night was the Trans-Siberian Orchestra concert at the AA center. That is the most incredible light show I have ever seen. And the music of course was great. I plan to see them again.
New Years Eve started with dinner with the family at Mimi's Cafe. There was 18 of us there. Stephen asked me why we started having so many family get togethers. I didn't have an answer other than we are all getting older and spending time together seems to be a priority.
New Years Eve was very low key. An old friend stopped by and we shared champagne, good conversation and watched the ball drop. It was just too cold to go anywhere. New Years day was much warmer and of course a big day for football. The games were a bit boring but nonetheless, it was football day at the Kelly house. Had a dinner date that evening and enjoyed a rather large tasty margarita.
Back to work on Wednesday for the first day of billing. Stephen is going to finish out this week, probably work on Monday and then take a few days off before heading back on the 11th. It has been great having him home and getting such a big dose of him. (work & home) He seems to be more comfortable about the upcoming semester and I think he will start to find a balance of studying and having a little fun.
My New Year's Resolution is.... I don't have one. I will continue doing what I am doing. I am going to put more effort into losing about 15 lbs. That has to happen. I will take on each day with a positive attitude and just be happy. I am sure there will be wonderful opportunities that are in store for me this year and I am ready for each one of them. My friend Kay says 2008 is going to be my year. I guess I will sit back and see what happens!!!!!